Lost

When I heard you were dead

I couldn't even cry

too darn shocked

Guess I didn't expect 

someone as strong as

you

to just 

leave

like that

Now, if only

I'd had some strength myself

Bit of courage too

then maybe

just maybe

I could have shared some with you.

You know

Sometimes I see you in the street

Or think I see you

They often look like you

You should see them

See all your faces everywhere

Your strong back

And in your funeral

Our mother

Must have taken some mass of willpower

to even walk up there and tell them

about the man you were

Your father 

Said he couldn't stand being at the funeral,

but showed up anyway

Looked older than our grandfather that day

 And your little bro, my big bro, he did well

Carrying you down the aisle

Even thought he couldn't see a thing

If a man could drown in tears...

Made our mother sob

A mother crying for her passed son, 

that's not anything anyone should ever have to hear

I don't get it

I don't get it at all

How your skinny little brother didn't buckle

halfway down that aisle

Never seen anyone age quite that fast

Wonder how it must have felt

Don't think I have ever seen it rain so much

Don't worry, though

I will tell him

We all will tell him

Tell your lil' bro not to sink quite as deep

into the ground as you just yet

We will take care of him

We will try

It's up to him

Though

If it were to happen that the lil' boy 

would think of the same way out you did

THIS TIME

we will get there in time

So if it is not too much to ask, please

Please rest 

in peace

We have got you covered

We will tell your bro for you

If he has got time for thoughts like yours,

he might as well do everything he dreamed of first

got nothing to lose

And when he tries all those things,

like you didn't,

he's gonna realize that life

isn't really

all that

bad.

One way or the other

it really is

going to be okay.

We miss you bro, I miss you.

This is to all to those people who have lost their loved ones when they have chosen the blue sky. I know that there isn't one single person who has been forgotten. I am sure that we miss them and remember them in our hearts. Remember it is okay to cry but don't fall into the deep grief, because it is really long way back up. Maybe we will see them one day, but not yet, not just yet. They are not alone but neither are we.